Dreams

I had a dream last night that my sister got engaged, but it wasn't to her current boyfriend. She said yes. What do dreams mean anyway? Well, some people say that whatever thoughts you have subconsciously surface during dreams; you know, those inner thoughts and beliefs that linger, but get pushed aside by everyday, practical thoughts like, " What am I going to feed the kids for dinner?" or "What will my attending pimp me on today?" But there is always the school of thought that dreams are like a sixth sense- premonition-like. So my first instinct this morning was to call my sister to ask her if she had gotten engaged, and find out if I AM TRULY PSYCHIC! I haven't called her yet, as it is still 0700, and she is nocturnal.

The dreams that bother me are the ones that involve people in my past, people with whom I have unresolved isssues, um , okay feelings. There is this one guy from high school whom I loved, but he never loved me back. I graduated high school 17 years ago, but I still have dreams about him. The dreams are all pretty much the same: we are hanging out; I feel that he cares; I try to find out if he cares; he is about to tell me that he cares; then I wake up wihtout an answer. I am not sure why I still have this dream, except that it is still unresolved in my mind. I wish I could just let it go because truly it does not matter . . . except to that insecure 18 year old girl inside of me that wants to be loved and appreciated.