To Thine Own Self Be True

Having not written anything in a long time, I kept putting off coming back to post, hoping that I would have some sort of epiphany and the perfect "comeback" post would just come to me out of no where. Well, that didn't happen, yet here I am writing. After several days off from work, and a lot of time to just THINK, I came to the realization that I THINK TOO MUCH! Yes. I am sure many of my friends and family would agree with this, but now I know. So I told my self, "Self, it is okay that you think. You can't help it. It is who you are. But darn it (okay, that's not really what I said), when you write, don't think so much -just write! It's what you love to do. So here I am -unstructured, unplanned, dare I say, unedited (ooh!).

When I was in junior high and high school, I wrote a lot of poetry and prose, mostly to express my teenage angst. As I got older, I liked to think that my angst diminshed, but in reality, I just expressed it in ways other than writing. The writing fell by the wayside, although I did always keep a journal (yes, the, "Dear Diary" kind). A few years ago, I started this blog, just so that I could continue my journaling. But then I would talk to some of my friends, and tell them about a topic that I wrote about, then before I knew it, I was giving out the URL to my blog. Knowing that people were now reading my blog inhibited me a bit -okay a lot. I began to really hold back on what I was really thinking, even deleting posts that I thought would offend people. Pretty soon I found myself not wanting to write my blog.

But I missed the writing, I craved the writing, I yearned for the writing. So I have made the decision to write on this site what is on my mind, regardless of what I thought people would think. While I do not want to intentionally offend anyone, I am willing to take that chance because (1) this blog is for me and my own sanity, (2) most people who know me don't like me anyway, (3) I only know of three people who actually read this site; those who lurk and don't give me any feedback can just bite me.

So I am back, raw, uncensored, and better than ever.